Baby Apple Cummins Roche

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.Angel Day♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Today is very special,♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
It comes by once a year♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ .
It’s the day you went to Heaven♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
And the day you left me here♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ .

I know I should be happy,♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
You’re in your Heavenly home.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
But instead I feel so empty♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
And oh so all alone.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Yes today is very special ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
The day you grew your wings.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
You left so very quickly♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
You didn’t take your things♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ .

Instead you left me crying,♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Yet hoping all the while♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
That someday I will remember♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
This day with a smile.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 19, 2011

baby apple☆....☆....☆....☆....☆....☆

im sorry i never got to see you or hold you apple.

it was a sad loss but i know your with your aunt vanessa♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

so we miss yous lots. daddy xxx ☆....☆....☆....

Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

baby apple☆....☆....☆....☆....☆....☆

its this time again 3years ago since my heart was broke all over again.

im sorry i let you down im sorry my body failed you.
il always wonder what i was doing when your heart stopped beaten il always hate myself for not knowing it was happening. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

just because i never got to see you like lorcan it doesnt make it easier .
it hurts just as much and il forever wish things were different for you.

people think i cant miss you because i never had you but i did i had so any plans for us.

baby apple loving you always forgetting you never

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Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

★*★* You may be out of sight *★* But you'll never be out of mind *★* You will always be In the hearts *★*Of those you left behind. *★* ★

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★Tiny stars, shining bright, its time for me to say good night. So close your eyes, and snuggle up tight, I'm wishing you sweet dreams tonight. xx ★

Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

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Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

goodnight

I'm Lighting This Candle
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It Shines So Bright
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For You Special Angel
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Sweet Dreams Tonight
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Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

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Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

my princess

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Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

baby apple

its 3 years since you were taken from me,3years since ive learned yet again another baby gone and 3years since my heaft got broken all over again,i know il always be your mammy and lorcans mammy but i just want to be a happy mammy,not a sad one not one that has to go to graves to say happy birthday or to buy them things,monday its lorcans 8th birthday and i cant say how much it hurts that all i can do for him is a balloon on his grave, and for you i dont even have that all ive have is your name in a memory book at the hospital,and my own memories,because you only exsisted to me you were only real to me,so peole think this day doesnt hurt as much or i dont think about you as much, but we both know thats not true,il always wonder what i was doing when your heart stopped beating and il always hate myself for not knowing ,i was all you had i am the only one who felt you so i should of known you were gone instead i carried on as normal and that will always bother me,when i did start to expect something was wrong i didnt want to face it i delayed going to the hospital after everything that happend with lorcan maybe oit would of helped who knows,but i am sorry im sorry i let you down im sorry my body betrayed you rejected you,ive been pregnant so many times and have yet had a happy moment in the deliverly room have yet to be called mammy and i often think does god know something i dont like id be a terrible mammy but i very much dout it,i would of done anything for you or lorcan yous would of been my life and all i ever needed to be happy was you and lorcan,,but here it is the 18/9/11 and like every other year il be sad but il get tru it :)thinking of you aalways forgetting you never xxx

Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 18, 2011

baby apple

its almost 3years to the day that i lost you,3years since my life was wrecked ,sorry i havent been on but it doesnt mean anything i still think about you every day and talk about you alot ,sadly i didnt get you name with lorcan in the book but when im ther monday for lorcan il do it, sunday and monday are going to be awful but il get tru it like i do every year,3years for you and 8years for lorcan and it still doesnt get easier it still breaks my heart, il buy you a balloon and put it on lorcans grave for you :) il be back sunday for you till then night night baby apple loving you always forgetting you never xxx

Carol Murtagh (Mummy)

September 16, 2011